Last night Charlie had one of his nightmares (he gets them occasionally) and came running onto my room and in my bed (I am sleeping in the other room as I am keeping Kev awake with my constant coughing) "Can I sleep with you?" So of course I let him, who could resist sleeping with their baby eh! But oh did he wriggle and oh how I coughed... we were a right pair!!

I took him to school and went straight back to bed and didn't surface until noon!!! Whoa did I need the sleep!!! It was great!

I had a reading so there was no way I could lazy around in bed!! It's funny with every reading I do, you can never guarantee what is going to happen. And this was one of them.

A lady came to see me and she had lost someone very dear to her a short while ago, and lets just say it was not the greatest experience. I never know what is going to be said in a reading and I am simply the messenger. There was a lot of tension between her and the spirit and I found myself wrapped up in a tense situation.

This is one of the reasons why I ask, "Do you want to know everything?" It was really hard. The spirit first of all didn't want to come through, I found myself chatting away to other spirits and they were happy to chat but she couldn't relate to it then just when I was about to say to her, I'm sorry I am not going to waste your time or money, the person she wanted appeared.

This particular spirit had only been on the other side for a few months and was still going through the issues that they had left behind in life. They still very much had their personality and ego and the anger.

Spirits don't automatically just lighten up when they cross, they have to work, and sometimes very hard to see what pain they have caused on people. Some people stay in a particular place for a while, until they learn lessons. This person was one of those spirits that was being monitored, by their guide.

The guide bought them through and stood by them all the time, to help the spirit and to make sure they didn't stay trapped between worlds and for many other reasons. Most spirits do tend to make the journey to visit us with a friend so they can get back safely.

I am not sure if the reading bought my client comfort or more pain, but you can never guarantee what is going to happen, and my heart went out to her and I am still thinking of the reading.

So I am preparing for the race on Sunday... the target is creeping up slowly... I am hoping we can raise the $20,000 target. Just a few more hundred dollars so let everyone you know about this great cause and fingers crossed we will hit target before the race on Sunday morning!!!

Ok sleep time for me, but just bear this in mind. Expectations. We all have them and sometimes we have high expectations but they are not always met. Try to keep an open mind and see what happens... that way you are never disappointed!

Have a great weekend, I will blog tomorrow but it will be early so I can get some shut eye before the race.

With love

xx

Done it again, up late, but again I'm coughing!! Never mind, it will go. Anyway I officially have a sore bum... yes 12 miles today on the bike... really gearing up for the ride on Sunday. I need a big boost for the donations if I am going to hit the target, so send this to all your family and friends.

So I did promise I would talk about my near death experience. So many of you have asked me what it's like and whether there are angels playing harps at the pearly gates?? Answer is No. I had a near death experience 4 years ago. I was rushed in to the UCLA hospital when I had a severe infection, and my body just couldn't take any more of the pain.

I was lifted out of my body, it's the only way I can describe it. The relief was amazing. I knew what was happening, well sort of but I didn't.. it was really strange. But I do know that I didn't want to look back. I know I would have seen my body, and it would have scared me I suppose. But it was weird. I felt free, light and just warm. Really warm.

The one thing I can't explain is the love that you feel when you pass. It's like nothing you will ever experience over here on this earth plane. Imagine a love for a child or an animal and then times it by 100... then you are close to the love. It's just unbelievable. And yes, there is the white light. It never hurt my eyes as I hadn't got my body, but I know now that if I looked at something that bright, it would blind me.

I was greeted by my Nan, and I kept trying to look behind her for my granddad. I know he was lurking there, but he didn't show his face. I think if I had seen him, I would never had come back. My Nan kept saying, "Go back, it's not your turn. You are not ready, you have so much work to do.. now go back!"

I chatted with Nan for a while, and I felt feeling souls flying past me and chatter... chatter like nothing before, and laughter and people greeting each other. It was amazing. What felt like an hour chatting with Nan and being in her presence was actually less than a minute in our time.

I was sucked back suddenly waving goodbye to Nan and then back in terrible pain hearing Kev shouting for a Doctor in the ER. I couldn't tell anyone for a long time about this, I was embarrassed thinking that they would say I made it up... but it was amazing!!!

So people ask me if I am afraid of dying... and yes I am in a way, I am afraid of what would happen to my son, my husband... all the normal things that we think about. But then having passed, I know I am safe and that I can see them whenever I wish. But I am not afraid of dying as I know we do have eternal life and that there is evidence of this and that our loved ones are with us and helping and guiding us.

I hope this helps as I know there has been much discussion about death today on the boards.

But there has also been a lot of helping each other out too... many of us have been bought together to help each other through the tough times and this has become apparent today... strangers helping each other out.

Amazing!!!

So let's just have a smile for everyone today... no matter who it is, smile at them, and show them love. It could make their day!!!

Happy Friday!!!

Well I am getting there, I did over 10 miles on a real bike, and yes you guessed it, my bum is sore!! But I did it... I couldn't go out the other day as it was so wet and windy and this was the first chance I had. I'm going out again tomorrow... I have my ipod full and the morning free so I will be a happy camper on my bike riding by the ocean! ohh I can't wait!

Well today I had a little man who was rather emotional. Charlie is going into hospital to have his tonsils out. He already has had his adenoids out but the Dr thinks that some have been left in so he is going to investigate. I had this op when I was 5 and I loved eating the ice cream so when I told Charlie this today his little face lit up, just as any 7 year old's would when then know that they can eat as much ice cream as they like!

I came home and I had to do a reading and then he wanted to go out, to Johnny Rockets... he loves that place. I had dinner plans so I didn't eat. I wished I had because when it came to the time I was leaving the house, Charlie put his shoes on and said, "I'm coming with you!" Oh he did make me laugh... and he said, "Don't laugh mommy I am!" So I had to explain that it was a girlie night with my friend, but he was not having any of it. he flung himself on the floor and grabbed on to my leg and said, I'm coming with you. Its often a game we play. Charlie hanging on to our legs and we pull him along the wooden floor, he loves it. But this time he meant it!! I was not going anywhere, from the tears I saw when I asked him to get up as I was already late.

I couldn't leave him, so I called my friend who would do anything for 'Mister Charlie' as she calls him and she totally understood and we had an evening of watching Spongebob Squarepants and playing. It was so much fun... he went to bed as good as gold and fell straight to sleep... bless him.

We all have those emotional days. I know I do, and I don't have any hormones to blame it on. Some of us have more than others, but what we need is comfort. Of course we have to stay positive and know that tomorrow is another day and that we will be stronger. But live for the moment and if you need to be emotional, be emotional. ask for help, ask for comfort and ask for love.

There is nothing wrong in it. You are not weak, you are strong because you know what you want and need and you are asking for it. Not everyone can do that. Once we learn to do that then there is so much we can accomplish. knowing that we have our support network around us is a safety net it's so important.

I have mine and judging from the posts yesterday, two of them were talking about me and plotting... but I know that they are only doing it in my best interest. Janey she is like my sister and Sam, is the girl that I grew up with and is mentioned in the book. She is still a very good friend. They are plotting... hmmm remember girls I am psychic!!!

So having a support network is important, ask for help, don't suffer in silence, you are worth more than that. And when you do ask for help you will be surprised how many people will just coming running to help you...

Right need to get some sleep I'm up too late again... I have a cough and it's keeping me up!

Happy Thursday... nearly Friday!

xxx