Leaving Spain

Well my trip has been one of mixed emotions and as I sit here on my
flight I am reflecting back on not only my 3 days here but almost a
lifetime of memories. It's strange as my feelings towards my family
have changed so much over the last few years and have almost done a
180 degree flip. It's been a learning curve and also an eye opener.

I love my Nan dearly and she has always been someone who has been
there for me in so many ways but likewise I have been there for her,
especially since my grandfather passed. She was always someone I
looked up to and considered a mother figure. But over the last few
years I have seen a bitterness come over her that I never thought I
would ever acknowledge let alone blog about. I have seen her create
problems ontop of problems.

Many of you who have followed my blogs will have seen me write about
many things and one of them is the 'Me Me Me' syndrome. Sadly this is
what my Nan has. Yes she is seriously ill and they are unsure whether
it is cancer or not (find out next week) but she is in great spirits
and loving the attention. However on my last day with her she turned
and I saw a side that only my parents have spoken to me about.

The bitterness came out towards my parents on the last day. Critizing
them for not coming in the day, as I borrowed the car to see a friend,
complaining that they went to see a friend of theirs who was also in
hospital with a serious condition the day before. Moaning that they
had talked about the same friend instead of talking about her state of
health. And also questioned when I was going to get her new clothes as
mom had a new wardrobe from all my old clothes that I had taken over.
I even mentioned that my friend Sue was going to come and stay with
us, and she strugged her shoulders and said with bitterness, well with
all your friends coming over there isn't space for me at your house!

I hear many things from my parents about Nan and I also hear Nan's
side and so I know both sides to the story.

I have thought about what she was like when I was young and sadly I
have to say she has always been the same.

My relationship with my parents has changed and I believe I now
understand why they made choices and decisions and I have so much more
respect for them. I do think that's part of maturity and growing up.

My thoughts and prayers are now with my parents who have to endure
this task alone with my Nan. I try to lighten the load as much as I
can being 7000 miles away but it doesn't help as much as I would like.
I see my father being in the middle of two women he loves and having
to be the peace maker. His blood pressure is sky high even though he
is on blood pressure medication.

I am sad to leave Spain not because I am leaving my Nan but because I
am leaving my parents in a situation that is creating so much stress I
am worried for their health.

I know many of you may not like how I have spoken about my family, but
these are my true feelings and one thing I am proud to say, is that I
don't hide my emotions. I let it all out. Now I have seen Nan I don't
think she is leaving us yet and I do think I will see her again. I
write all this from the heart and with love.

It's been a tough few days actually being able to take that step back
and view the whole situation and sadly not liking what I see. I ove my
Nan but something in me has changed towards her and my respect for my
parents has changed incredibily.

Life is not about being bitter, it's about embracing what we have,
with a smile on our faces not blaming peole for what has happened to
us, we have to accept the life we have, or make changes. It's a tough
time for everyone at the moment with economic pressures and struggles
but making the most of the life we have makes everything seem ok.

So as you can imagine I am looking forward to being back home with my
family and appreciating what I have.

But first a meeting with Sky Real Lives in the UK!!! It's the channel
that my tv show is airing on at the moment.

Big hugs and love

Lisa xx

Universal language

You know I have sat in a hospital for 3 days and each time a different
nurse or doctor comes in and they talk fast and witter on like I am
suppose to understand.

I explain that I don't speak much Spanish but somehow I understand
what they are saying ... It's strange. But somehow we manage to
communicate somehow. Through expressions and using our hands. There
are so many ways we communicate but the one thing we all understand,
(unless you are Russian, I found out today) we all understand a smile.

The warmth, the comfort, the happiness, the love that a smile
projects. It's funny everyone I have encountered during my time in
hospital by the side of my Nans bed has a smile on their face. There
is nothing like it.

When you feel ill sometimes just having someone smile at you brightens
your day. A hug to show that you care it can change someone's world in
an instant!

Just take a moment to think about this and I thank you from the bottom
of my heart for all the loving thoughts and healing being sent our
way. Nan is looking frail and weak tonight and Charlie is bouncing
back from an ear infection.

Big smiles to you all!!!

With love

Lisa xx

Spain

I finally made it to Spain after a grueling 24 hours of travel. I didn't sleep really at all on the plane, as much as I tried, I just couldn't to it. I dozed, but it wasn't real sleep. I suppose apprehension and everything else stopped me. So when I got here and visited Nan in the hospital, I was on my last legs!!!

The bed next to Nan is empty, and I was so tempted to curl up and sleep!!

Well my Nan is doing well. She was really happy to see me and cried when I gave her a big squeeze. She's scared of course, but keeping a brave face on for the sake of the family. The scan results have come back, and we are waiting for her to have a biopsy today. It's not looking good, but we are all making her laugh.

Dad nearly had us over the edge of a cliff today!!! Bless him, he was chatting away to me in the back and was trying to look at me more than the road. Thankfully I shouted to him to watch out, and half the car started to go over the side, fortunately after a short while he gained control and got it back on the road!!! Guess who got to drive the rest of the way to the hospital.... Me! I'm not sure what was more traumatic, going over the edge or me driving!!! LOL!

We are in the back of beyond with no Internet service, and limited phone service. I am so glad I can keep up with things on my phone, it's amazing how much we rely on technology!!! In my Nan's day, everyone took the time to write letters!!! I used to love to recieve letters and now we all check the inbox on our emails!!!

Mom and Dad have just nipped out to go to the shop, and I am here with nan waiting for her biopsy. I've had this done before so I know she is worried about it, but she's slipped into a sleep so it's enabled me to blog which is nice. I'll let you know how she gets on.

I have some exciting news... and I totally forgot to tell you over the weekend, but Ronda LaRue and myself are holding another one day retreat in Ojai, CA again in May this year. There are limited places, so get in quick.

It's Journey of the Soul... embracing you and your loved ones and helping you on the journey to gain the life you really want.

Check it out at www.journeyofthesoulojai.com -- we are both really looking forward to it! We have a different venue to last year, and it is just gorgeous. Over 200 acres of pristine and serene beauty!

I know last year it sold out quickly so get in quick if it's something you would like to do. We have to keep the number of attendees small so as to keep the day intimate and hands on from us both. Ronda is amazing and helped me so much on my own personal journey.

Well I am thankful for technology now to help me keep you all up to date, and glad I can email my blog in, the wonders of email!!

Have a great day

Lots of love

Lisa xx

Fresno

It was great to be in Fresno and the one thing that stood out to me, was the activity that was in the theater, before I started to do the readings... even before I started putting my makeup on! It was crazy!!! Down the corridor where the dressing rooms were, were extremely active!! The whole theater was active and buzzing from activity. 

Even in the intermission, my door to my dressing room was locked when I went to go back in there, and you cannot lock the door without the key... no one had the key!!! It was totally bizarre but fun!

The readings were nice and I am so glad that people had questions that were answered and also I am surprised how many spirits came through and normally it was more that one person for everyone. Or one person bought through the main person that they wanted. It was so nice. 

Some nights are full of laughter, like last night and then there are nights that are simple and nice with people getting the answers that they needed and tonight was one of those nights!

So it's off to bed now for me, I am about to change the clocks so that I don't leave late and miss my flight to the UK. I am heading back to see my parents in Spain and make sure that my Nan is ok. I was going to try and swing by to say hi to the family before I headed to the airport but I just won't be able to, it's going to take too long and what with the time change, it's not going to happen.

Have a great weekend and I will not be around tomorrow as i will be on a flight but have a great day and I'll keep you updated on the trip.

Big hugs and love

Lisa xx

Lancaster!

First of all I started my day in Fresno after spending 3 hours in a
hotel and I was so tired.

I had a feeling I should have taken my wrap to put on for Fresno but
instead I took my ski jacket and next thing I know my interview was in
a parking lot... I should have taken my wrap to keep warm!!!

So we went back to Lancaster and I went to bed which I needed to do.

The show tonight was do much fun and I flew around the audience dpi g
7 readings in the first half. You never know what the night is going
to be and I want to answer a post that was posted about last night how
someone was dissappointed about how many readings I do. And sadly I
have no choice there are several factors. The spirits firstly and then
the energy of the venue and audience and last night was a tough night
for me.

Tonight was a totally different night. It was amazing. I had the guy
who created life among the dead in the audience and he has a saying...
Don't f*** it up. And he says it just before I go on stage or start
filming and you can guarentee it's always a good night when that
happens!!!

And it was. The last reading of the night was amazing and so heart
breaking and he little girl who had passed told me she was coming
back, the woman who was getting the reading then announced that she
was pregnant!!!! OMG!!!!

It was incredible. Every show is different and you never know what
happens!!!

Anyway bedtime for me, have a great night.

With love

Lisa xx